Who R U

"...the Caterpillar took the hookah out of its mouth, and addressed her in a languid, sleepy voice. 'Who are You?' said the Caterpillar...Alice replied, rather shyly, "i-i Hardly know, sir, just at prestent- at least I know who i was when I got up this morning, but I think I must have been changed several times since then.'" --Alice in Wonderland by Lewis Carrol

Hearing about a movie called "Unknown white male" about a photographer who gets amnesia, got me to thinking. the eternal Question...Who Are WE? What if you woke up and don't remember who you are?

Who am I...I am a sum total of all the decisions and choices I have made up till this point. All Those past choices are stored in my subconsious mind as Memories. All The memories I have are what Inform current choices. i.e. I may not touch a hot stove because I have a subconcious memory of getting burned.

So what happens when one gets amneshea and dosen't remember any thing, their likes dislikes, style of clothes or music? does that "other person" even exist anymore? Is it possible to be a different person from one day to the next?

WHO ARE YOU???

That wascaly wabbit...

december 18th, 2005... Nine days after the big three-O...I have been deemed worthy enough to be wise. I awoke this morning smacking the awful taste out of my mouth with my toungue attempting to produce enuff siliva to mositen the dry cotton that the sand man left and rubbing the gooey sleep from my eye's. I gaze into the mirror and to my surprise a supurb, shimmering, silver strand of wisdom had emerged through my cranial epidermis. It is official...I am...dare i say it...going grey...and at such a young age too.

GENERIC®

so here is a list i have compiled of registered product names that are used in place of the generic product they represent:
Jell-O
Q-Tips
Kleenex
Tylenol
Alka-Selzer
Coke
Ziploc
Saran Wrap
Tupperware
Crock-Pot
Zippo
Sharpie
Post-it
Scotch tape
Chap-Stik
Vaseline
Brillo Pad
Windex

and a few new ones:
iPod
TiVo

ABC's "LOST" in 4D

with all this new technology such as "tivo" the internet and "iPod" watching tv is a whole new expiriance. I found this Lost "podcast" where you can watch lost and listen to comments from the peanut gallery a-la-mystery science theater 3000. 'podcastTVSquad after watching the episode you can catch up with all the latest news from charlie's bandDriveShaft or book a flight on
Oceanic Airlines flight 815...what flight 815 is missing?! hmmmm...

Big Beatles

well I new The Beatles were big, but this is ridiculous

Lost

"orientation" film
I am hooked on "lost." I found this link of the film footage explaining "the Dahrma Initiative" on Last weeks episode. it sounds to me as if the island was (maybe still is) a "large scale communal research compound" thats the way it appears anyway. did anyone else notice the polar bears? (think last season) hmmm.

False "Profits"

"but seek ye first the Kingdom of God and all these things shall be added unto you." Matthew 6:33' we have this all wrong in society today we seek things first, Cars, Ipods, TiVo then after we are comfortable then the kingdom" I heard this being said by a pastor on a certain "Christian" radio station O.k . at first hearing this, one may sit back an say "amen" to that. The pastor Then went on to say "god wants us to be comfortable, If we first seek his kingdom then all these things computers, cars, nice clothes...things will then be added unto you.

You have to follow God and then he will give you the things you want." This pastor spoke for half an hour and talked about a Christmas gift he wanted and how he got it. other stories from his life with a few jokes to sprinkled trough-out to make everyone laugh. Besides quoting the verse at the beginning of his sermon, it wasn't until five minutes from the end that he mentioned what I have quoted above.

It may sound like there is nothing wrong with what he said. That is the danger of heresy it sounds legitamate but if he had gone into the bible and read the rest of Matthew 6 the "things" that are being talked about are shelter, food, and clothing the minimum required to survive. I am sure there are people hit by Katrina that were "seeking the kingdom first" were is their stuff now? Where is their "things" they may not be comfortable but they have shelter and food available. Thanks to orginizations like the Red Cross

and churches like Grace Bretheren

This pastor I'm sure wasn't intending to distort the scripture, but that's what happens when we approach the Bible selfishly as merely a book of truths to give us a set of principles for life, marriage, family, or finances. The Bible becomes nothing more than a tool to be used and it remains external. When we see the Bible as the living word, as Gods Story, it encompasses every aspect of life we are challenged to live in and become part of it.

Introverted iNtuitive Thinking Perceptive

this is the reason i rarely post its who i am. my blog personality or "bloginality"

"You are an INTP!

As an INTP, you are Introverted, iNtuitive, Thinking, Perceiving.
This makes your primary focus on Introverted Thinking with an Extraverted Intution.

This is defined as a NT personality, which is part of Carl Jung's Rational (Knowledge Seeking) type, and more specifically the Architect or Thinker.

As a weblogger, you might not be as concerned about popularity, but more with the ideas and theories that you strive to understand. Because routines aren't your strong point, you might be more likely to work on the concept of how to do a blog, but not be as excited to keep it up."

My Bloginality is INTP!!!

money is the root of all evil...

...does that mean there was a money tree in the garden of eden?

habitual credit card use can be as dangerous as heroin, just as addictive and probably costs as much to. The other day I read an article about how this young mother ran up $50.000 in credit card debt from buying gymboree outfits fifty THOUSAND dollars in baby clothes c'mon that’s just crazy. Imagine if the APR on that card was just 12% she would be paying $500 a month just for the privilege of staying in debt. Its like saying, "here's $1000 put $500 toward what I owe and you keep the rest, buy your daughter a few gymborie outfits"

Read the whole story here

Realy Boring

reality is boring why do people watch "reality tv" which isn't realy reality its a the good conflicts editited to a half hour or hour long show if there was a reality tv sohw about your live; would it be interesting? would it be part of a story? a part of THE story. what would it be like?

How was your weekend? or what did you do this weekend? is usualy a loaded Question often when people ask this it is because they had a great weekend and just want to share what they did.

so I have started to track my time what my reality show looks like. this is what I've got so far:
Sunday, July 24
8:00 am - 8:45 am wake up have breakfast
8:45 am -9:00 am Shower, brush teeth
9:00 am - 9:30am Drive to church
9:30am-12:15 noon Church/ ABF
12:15 n-12:30 Dirve
12:30 pm- 1:00 pm Grocery shoping
1:00pm - 2:00 pm prepare and eat lunch
2:00pm -3;00 pm TV (special on Johnny Cash)
3:00 pm - 4:15pm Drive
4:15pm - 6:00 pm Lake Paris
6:00pm - 7:15 pm Drive
7:15 pm - 11:30pm TV
11:30pm-1:15am Movie (Robin Williams live)
1:15 -1:30am ready for bed
Monday , July 25
10:00 am- 10:15 wake up and Breakfast
10:15am - 12:00n work on resume apply on-line jobs
12:00n - 12:30 Shower get ready for work
12:30- l:30 start laundry Type this blog

put the wrong empaasis on the wrong sylaable

since i don't post too often i've decided to leave a few morsels to chew on:

"Our incomes are like our shoes; if too small, they gall and pinch us; but if too large, they cause us to stumble and to trip." John Locke

"I'm living so far beyond my income that we may almost be said to be living apart."
e. e. cummings

"Faith is different from proof; the latter is human, the former is a Gift from God."
Blaise Pascal

"Don't worry about the world coming to an end today. It's already tomorrow in Australia."
Charles Schulz

"I am so busy doing nothing... that the idea of doing anything - which as you know, always leads to something - cuts into the nothing and then forces me to have to drop everything."
Jerry Seinfeld

"I have a phone now...and there was much rejoycing"
Nathan Voss

ET phone home...

o.k. so it's been like a month now since i lost my phone. and it is been a challenge calling this person.
I'm T.Oed because its been a month and she still hasn't sent me my phone. I thought hey why don't i have everyone i know give her a call and politely remind her to send the phone, but instead of being really mean and posting her number for the entire world wide web to see. i decided to just foward her number to those who ask. so if you want to contact me i'll send Anna's number to you.

here is a random quote by Simone de Beauvoir (1908-1986)

"Thats what I consider true generosity. You give your all, and yet you always feel as if it costs you nothing"

FOR SALE: mind , just like new...never used!!

So today i thought i would do a random google search, and typed "mind."one of the headings that came up said:

"DISCOUNT MIND: New & used Mind. Check out the huge selection now!" and below it had his address www.eBay.com

gosh what can't you sell on eBay? I have heard of people loosing thier mind. perhaps these people never lost it at all: but sold it for some fast cash, and forgot.
now what did i do with that mind of mine i know it was here yesterday. its a bummer too... i only used 20% of it

FREE iPod!!! NO WAY

Yes.. It is True...A free iPod, this is a $200 digital music player that works with either mac or pc. "O.K. what's the catch?" i said when my roomate jeff approached me about it. "you just sign up and complete just one of the offers. a trial blockbuster.com membership or sign up for a credit card (GM card that gives you %5 toward a new vehicle) or try some weightloss drug. and then you just need to sign up 5 more people." i was still skeptical and thought its a scam a marketing ploy to get money they don't just give stuff away like that. what is the catch? so I never signed up. and now about a month or so later he shows me his brand new 20gig iPod and all he ended up paying was like $5 shipping for some trial product. Wow it actually worked. So now i am am going to try.
of course i used my "spam" e-mail account. if you want to check out the sight here is the link: www.freeiPods.com/?r=13469248

I'm sorry the person You are trying to reach has been temporarily disconnected...

well a couple of weeks ago I lost my cell phone, having no "land-line" there is only three ways to contact me: e-mail, "snail mail", or just drop by. This at first created some what of a paradox...I fell this sort of freedom, not having to be constantly "connected' yet a bit of Anxiety also, what if there is an emergancy, really great news (like some one getting engaged), what if they need me to cover a shift at work...thats when it hit me. This is in a small way an asocial rebellion against this age of the internet and consistant connection. society always has to be "on". The cord has been cut. I am free from the control of a wireless wired society. But occationaly, I still feel need to "reach out a touch someone" and regardles if I use the phone or not I still have to pay the bill...

WHAT AM I DOING???

Ok here is a little ten minute exercise that is a little dissolving. You can do it right now while you are reading this post or next time you are alone listening to the buzz of silence contemplating solitude.
You feel cut off from the rest of the world and at that instant you feel you are the only one that exists lonely and bored. Nothing could be further from the truth. You will find out how mistaking you really are.
Right now in this moment, ask yourself what your friends, family, roomates, college buddies, highschool friends, anyone; is doing right now. Picture them in your mind. what there current activity is. Try and place them in relation to where you are now in space, beside you, to the left, right. Imagine how far they are from you. see them from different angles. Now think about the scene of people who might be around them.
broaden your point of view an imagine everyone else in their neigborhood, town, city. What are they doing; working, shoping, sipping a latte at starbucks, studing, sleeping. How many people in this world at this precise moment are clipping ther toenails? surfing the net, sipping a hot cup o soup?
How many at this instant are listening to music, watching t.v., trying to get comfortable in an airplane seat. How many are laughing, crying, dreaming?

How many at this instant are asking the same questions?

WARNING!!!!

So, I haven't posted in a while in fact it has been so long I forgot my address. I go to my computer and log on to the net i type www.natrix.com oooops! that's not right it was ome company, oh yeah I think to myself it on blogspot so I type: www.natrix.blogspot .com and the familiar black template that i chose loads up and in the box it say's "Natrix" the as I look about the page du dum...du dum...du dum dudumdumdudm the JAWS theame plays in my head and my heart skips a beat then tump tump thuthump thu thump it beats faster as a scan the page what does this all mean, tessting...blogsomething test test test...lorem ipsum something...posted by: nate oh no i thought it has been so long since i have posted that pranksters have hacked into my blog. and started posting gibberish...How long has this been going on. I click some of the links...This isn't making sense. I break into a cold sweat and scream " WHERE AM I!!!!"........ wait a minute my blog is "ENTER the natrix" whew...

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got agua?

I found this bottled water that has the coolest name ever:VOSS

hair today gone tomorrow

well my fans have been patiently waiting for another inspired pearl from deep within the cognitive grayness on the darkside of my ocular cavities. I was sent an e-mail, this one inparticular had an attachment, photo of some redhead. My friend, on a whim decided to dye her hair red. earlier in the week a former co-worker came into Starbucks sporting jet black hair. yesterday I just got bored and took a pair of clippers to my noggin. with one strand of hair scientests can determine what type of diet one has, were one lives, race, and virtualy unlimited DNA information. like the rings on a tree our hair provides a rich history to those who know how to dicipher it. Imagine once one decides to walk into the hair stylist or the drugstore to pick up that box of dye, they have decided to alter the course of their life. the stylist will shampoo, snip, snip, buzzzz, buzzz, a little, a lot, somewhere between, maybe none at all. they apply color or peroxide to remove existing color. perhaps a million tiny strands of your old self being swept into a pile mingling with other salon patron's past personas. Just sewpt into a dust pan and thrown out. when the process is finished you walk out an apparantly new person with a renewed confidance. It will more or less conform to your asthetic notion of what is the new "you". For a split second people you know won't recognise you. even though you are still essentially the same, the same likes and dislikes, same taste in music.

The future present has a past and it's now

Marty McFly : Wait, you don't understand. If you don't play there's no music. If there's no music they don't dance. If they don't dance they don't kiss and fall in love and I'm history.
I'm sure just about everyone has seen Back to the Future. in the movie Marty McFly goes back in time and inadvertantly disrupts the space/time continum, when he saves his dad from a fatefull accident that was the original conext of his parents meeting and falling in love. He now has to ensure they meet and fall in love, before he ceases to exist.
we all come into this world at a certain point in time when our history our part of the story begins. untill that time there was no "self" before that point of conception we didn't exist. When I was young i had the idea that we were in some ethereal plane (heaven) just waiting to be born. From the moment we are brought into this world our expiriences begin to shape who we are and will become. "Remember that which made you who you are, remember that which makes you unique, and forget everything else that makes you tired, scared, and weak."